A Moment of Clarity?

Spent the afternoon, from noon to 4, napping on my couch, having nothing better to do. The moment of clarity happened when I woke up and got to thinking: No one in their right mind would want to spend any time with me since I am such a slug. I remember how my old girlfriend, many years ago, came home one afternoon and disgustedly noticed I had done nothing all afternoon, much like today. I believe it was that day that she decided to end our relationship. Today felt a lot like that day 13 years ago. What hope is their for the future? Am I going to be alone forever? Is this all there is? Will I have to make due with the life I have today for the next 35 or so years? I hope not, because this sucks.