Not Blind

I don't like being there
I don't like going there
What must it be like to live there?

I do know that there is hope
Two months or two years from now
All can be different
Not really circumstancially
But mentally

A better place is possible
In this world
Of horrors

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What is "sexy"?
Is it first glance?
One year?
A healthy and parental feeling?
A non-healthy controlling urge?

I wish I WAS healthy
Only cared about sick women
Who can't love back

But I know that awareness is better than not
Though there is not enough time left
For all of it