You Have A Pretty Name

Did you know
I sometimes still look for your face
When I enter the meeting rooms?
Though you haven't shown up in months
I can't help myself
Never could

You may not have wanted me
To be your man
Years ago
I can live with that reality

But I can't accept this feeling I have inside

I think that
Just for today
If you would stop pretending
With those easily fooled
That you know what the hell you're doing
Then maybe the way out would appear in your life
Finally
Permanently

I asked our friend the other day
If you were "alive or dead"
Just me
Trying to be funny at first
Though I'm sure my fears read through

I haven't seen you in such a long time
So I miss your insecurities
And beauty