I'll Try

How big an ego would it take
To think I've destroyed an entire meeting
By myself?

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It started with an online argument
Between me and someone
I'd like to think is a friend
Six months back
He hasn't shown up
To the morning meeting
Since
Not one fucking time

And today it hit me
That all the people I enjoy seeing
The ones that help keep me sober
No longer attend
My morning meeting

Only strangers show up

I am too toxic
Too sick
Too sad
To be around
For one hour

It is said in the program
That to start a meeting
All you need
Is a coffee pot and a resentment

Maybe all you need to kill one
Is me